New moon blog #16. My tender heart
Happy new moon, autumnal equinox and happy new year to those who celebrate. New moons are a time of new beginnings and a chance for a clean slate. A new moon is dark and provides the perfect space to release the pain, fear and trauma of the previous month. For sensitive souls like earth angels the new moon is a portal for increased intuitive downloads.
This new moon I’m going to share my tenderness around my mom's passing. As many of you know my mom was diagnosed with bile duct cancer on June 27, 2021 and passed away on July 7, 2022. That year of being my mom's full time caregiver and watching her die in front of my eyes was very traumatic. The part that kills me was she didn’t want to die. She had so many plans for things she hadn’t done yet, like buy a home, get married and finish the books she was writing. Not to mention the pain of leaving my brother who she took care of after his brain injury.
It’s been 11 weeks since she passed and not a day goes by that I don’t cry. I don’t share this for you to feel bad for me, I share to be authentic about the painful initiation we both went through and how my angels and the practices in my book supported me through it.
I’m so grateful for the practices in my book holding me up through the most painful initiation of my life. As I watched my mom slowly decline and suffer in pain, my parts often felt angry or in resistance. Every time I was angry or frustrated I was so grateful for the practice of renewing your devotion. I knew I could break the sacred promise, going back to fear and then continually re-devote to receiving my angels’ love.
Becoming my mom's full-time caregiver and running two households for over a year was extremely stressful. Witnessing her physical and emotional struggle was an incredibly painful experience. I was grateful for the medicine of practice number two: relax and cherish your body. Knowing that relaxation is the gateway to angelic pain relief, helped to restore and rejuvenate my energy so I could continue to care for my mom.
Absolutely nothing prepares you for the death of your mother. My mom was only 67 years old. She had just retired from her 30 year nursing career just 2 months prior to her diagnosis. She had one complication after the next in her cancer journey. From extreme pain to needing biliary drains to eventually brain damage from an accidental drug overdose from the high doses of pain meds prescribed by the doctors. The medicine of practice three, release and lead with your heart, allows me to consciously release the sadness, grief and pain of her death while processing the deeper meaning of that experience.
The last weeks of her life were traumatic for me because I had to administer several strong pain medication‘s to keep her comfortable and sedated. When she was lucid and able to talk, she was very scared and having delusions. For some reason those last days of her life and having to keep her asleep so that she wouldn’t be scared and in pain was traumatic for me. Without the conscious connection of receiving my angels’ love and trusting my intuition on a daily basis, I know the PTSD that I have experienced would be even more intense.
Being an angel coach and author doesn’t mean I will never experience hard things. Having a clear angelic connection doesn’t make you immune to challenges or struggle. It does however mean that you will be loved and supported as you navigate them.
If you hire me as your angel coach, I will walk by your side as you deepen your connection to your own angels through whatever pain you are going through. I will support you to create a unique, joyful and personal connection with your angels every day. I will teach you tools to relax and release your pain or sorrow with the love of your angels. You will receive relaxing, nurturing and empowering angel healing sessions from me to support the release and transformation of your deepest pain into peace. You will receive an angel attunement so you can give yourself infusions of the angelic energy of compassion. This attunement will not only heal your pain but help you discover the deeper meaning of it as well.
If you are ready to transform your pain into peace, hire me as your angel coach. Fill out a short questionnaire on my website www.jillkempnerhealing.com and schedule a free breakthrough conversation. In this free 45-60 min BTC, I will help you get clear about your pain and share your customized angelic pain relief plan.
All my love and new moon angel blessings, Jill
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