From Pain to Power -Blog

From Pain to Power  
My fathers murder did a number on me emotionally. My dad was my favorite parent and it felt like I had died when I heard the news of his tragic death. I was crushed, frozen, and shocked. I was only 11 years old. I couldn't imagine life without my dad and I felt stuck with a crazy mom. I write this with deep compassion for both of my parents. But at age 11 I wasn't happy with my mom or with our relationship. We worked hard for decades to repair the emotional damage that built up from the years of stress, poverty and trauma we both experienced in my early childhood.  

After my fathers death, I became tough, hard and defensive. I wasn't going to let anyone into my heart. I felt deeply hurt and abandoned and I led with a badass exterior for many years. Slowly I chipped away at the mountain of hurt in my heart. I was led to become a massage therapist right out of high school, because I was seeking peace and relief. My healing journey had begun. 

I didn't fully crack under the weight of all that was left unprocessed, until I landed in the psych hospital, just shy of my daughter's first birthday. That first year after she was born was tough for me as I began to look at the trauma I had endured in the formative years of my life. Whenever I tried to relax, I became flooded with past memories of abuse and stress. Not to mention being sleep deprived and no solid self care in place. The unprocessed grief and trauma that I buried by numbing, self medicating, and over-working, surfaced when I became a parent and left me powerless to my pain. 

During my dark night of the soul, after the psych hospital, I often felt like a victim to my pain body. I felt lost, confused and in deep shame and judgement. I had an intuition that this unprocessed PTSD and grief was living in my shoulder and my gut. I needed relief. I needed a miracle. I needed my power back. I slowly reclaimed my personal power from the pain when I committed to a daily self care practice of yoga, meditation and self energy work. This daily practice opened my heart and mind to the angelic realm and that's when my healing skyrocketed. 

The unprocessed trauma or PTSD that landed me in the psych hospital was trapped in my shoulder and my gut and even with my best efforts, still turned into physical issues. The angels have shown that prolonged emotional pain will physicalize. Physical pain always has an emotional root. Allowing emotional pain to sit inside your body for years or even decades will eventually create dis-ease. 

It took me decades of daily self care to unpack the pain, see the deeper meaning and eventually led me to create the relax, release, receive process I outlined in my debut book. The angels and I are here to save you time from years of feeling powerless to your pain. Join me for my FREE Master class Reclaim your Power when you're in chronic pain with Angel Love on Thursday 5/22 where I will share my signature Angelic Pain Relief formula and how to get instant relief working with Archangel Raziel and your own team of angels too! Enroll today. All my love, Jill

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