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5/21/2025 0 Comments Vulnerability is power blog“I hate being vulnerable”, my inner child screams in my therapy session this week. Hatred was my protector. As I share more of my personal story and chronic pain journey, I realize how many protectors I had wrapped around my sensitivities. Hatred. Anger. Judgment. All trying to protect my vulnerability. The years of poverty, emotional abuse, and stress had me hating as a default. It was so much easier to put up the wall of hatred, then to feel vulnerable and potentially hurt again. Hating was easy. Withholding love from my parents, my brother or friends made me feel momentarily powerful. I used hate as a shield from other people‘s pain body. If I hated it blocked me from absorbing their negative energy. In my childhood, hate became a powerful way to protect my hurt and sensitive parts. After my father‘s murder, hate became my ally and kept people at arms length so they couldn’t hurt me anymore. Eventually, I saw vulnerability as weakness and walked around judging and hating. Hate felt powerful. Loving felt too vulnerable. Slowly, but surely the armor melted. Each storm and or initiation kept cracking me open and pushing me to be vulnerable. Meeting and marrying my soulmate, my father-in-law passing away, the birth of my first child, the psych hospital visit and the inevitable, dark night of the soul that followed. Layers of emotional pain surfacing inviting me deeper into my hard, armored heart. During my dark night of the soul when I felt lost confused and ashamed many things became apparent to me. Hate as a protector was no longer an option. Holding that baby in my arms melted my heart and made vulnerability a daily occurrence. One of the biggest gems of the journey from my dark night of the soul was realizing I needed to take better care of myself. I became committed to daily relaxation and self-care in the form of yoga, meditation and energy work. My devotion to relaxing daily helped me stop hating as a protector and taught me that vulnerability, that open hearted, open minded alignment with my soul, was the safest and most powerful place to be. As I released the pain and hate. I got my power back. As I let myself feel and be vulnerable, I got my power back. As I let the Angels heal my heart, I got my power back. My mission is to help you get your power back from chronic pain, whether it’s physical or emotional, with the Angelic Pain Relief formula that I will outline in my free master class tomorrow, Thursday, May 22. Reclaim your power from chronic pain with angel love. Enrollment is free and there will be a replay available for five days. This offering is over zoom from 2:30 to 4:30 PM CT. I would love for you and your Angels to join us. Thanks and love Jill.
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Happy mothers day weekend and happy full moon earth angel
Resentment: that's what made me feel ashamed. My parts felt ashamed that I allowed myself to be incredibly resentful for almost 5 years towards my family after I tore my ACL. This was my full moon breakthrough with my coach yesterday. I was feeling somewhat blocked to talk about my upcoming master class. I was struggling to share stories from that time. It didn't make sense logically because I know and trust the Angelic Pain Relief formula. Digging in, we found that the emotion and part that was blocking me from sharing stories when I was in chronic pain was shame. Shame about the resentment I felt and held onto for years following the unfortunate accident of tearing my ACL. The physical pain from tearing the knee, rehabbing the knee, having surgery and then rehabbing the knee again was enough to bear. Add the leaden emotions, resentment, shame and judgment, from the injury and recovery created that added insult to injury. Of course over the years I had processed and healed layers of these heavy emotions. However, sharing about it now so i can help others heal chronic pain, brought up more to heal. I felt powerless to my pain for over 5 years as I navigated several initiations. An initiation is a transformative experience that takes you from one level of understanding to another. Tearing my ACL, surgery and recovery, tearing my shoulder, retiring from my 20 year massage career, changing careers to become an Angel Coach, my brother’s traumatic car accident, being diagnosed with Crohn's disease, to another life changing event that actually broke the spell of the resentment that I was trapped under. In late 2020, an initiation that challenged my integrity brought me face to face with my unhealed emotions including shame and resentment. I had a choice. I could choose the same path and be righteously angry at the person who attacked me or I could choose a path of peace and forgiveness. Thankfully I was in a Priestess Mentoring training at the time that gave me powerful tools and a new way to handle initiations. This time, I would face this initiation of my integrity being attacked with self compassion and grace. This time I would stand in my true power which is peace. I am so proud that I chose to face and transform the leaden emotions that I buried within me with the light of my angels and all my Priestess power. I took my power back by turning leaden emotions into gold by revealing the deeper meaning of the pain. I took my power back by inviting the support of the angels. I took my power back by consciously processing the energies connected with this and previous initiations, with the Angelic Pain Relief formula. The angels remind us that you will repeat a pattern until you learn the lesson. This isn't coming from a space of punishment, self sabotage or “bad” karma. Learning the lesson is about gathering the pearls of wisdom of each experience and seeing yourself through the eyes of love, respect and compassion, which is how your angels see you. If you're ready for deep relief both physically and emotionally, join us for my FREE Master class on Thursday 5/22 Reclaim your Power when you're in chronic pain with Angel Love. I will share my personal stories of feeling powerless to the pain and how I got my power back with the Angelic Pain Relief formula. You don't have to suffer or struggle with chronic pain once you invite your angel's love and support. Enroll today. You also don't have to wait until May 22 to get relief , you can sign up for a free consult. It would be my honor to help you see your pain differently and create a personalized angelic pain relief plan just for you. Go to my website www.jillkempnerhealing.com to the free consult tab and fill out the short questionnaire. Once I review your application, we can set up that free consult. Hope to see you and your angels soon. Love and thanks, Jill |
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