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4/25/2025 1 Comment From Pain to Power -BlogFrom Pain to Power
My fathers murder did a number on me emotionally. My dad was my favorite parent and it felt like I had died when I heard the news of his tragic death. I was crushed, frozen, and shocked. I was only 11 years old. I couldn't imagine life without my dad and I felt stuck with a crazy mom. I write this with deep compassion for both of my parents. But at age 11 I wasn't happy with my mom or with our relationship. We worked hard for decades to repair the emotional damage that built up from the years of stress, poverty and trauma we both experienced in my early childhood. After my fathers death, I became tough, hard and defensive. I wasn't going to let anyone into my heart. I felt deeply hurt and abandoned and I led with a badass exterior for many years. Slowly I chipped away at the mountain of hurt in my heart. I was led to become a massage therapist right out of high school, because I was seeking peace and relief. My healing journey had begun. I didn't fully crack under the weight of all that was left unprocessed, until I landed in the psych hospital, just shy of my daughter's first birthday. That first year after she was born was tough for me as I began to look at the trauma I had endured in the formative years of my life. Whenever I tried to relax, I became flooded with past memories of abuse and stress. Not to mention being sleep deprived and no solid self care in place. The unprocessed grief and trauma that I buried by numbing, self medicating, and over-working, surfaced when I became a parent and left me powerless to my pain. During my dark night of the soul, after the psych hospital, I often felt like a victim to my pain body. I felt lost, confused and in deep shame and judgement. I had an intuition that this unprocessed PTSD and grief was living in my shoulder and my gut. I needed relief. I needed a miracle. I needed my power back. I slowly reclaimed my personal power from the pain when I committed to a daily self care practice of yoga, meditation and self energy work. This daily practice opened my heart and mind to the angelic realm and that's when my healing skyrocketed. The unprocessed trauma or PTSD that landed me in the psych hospital was trapped in my shoulder and my gut and even with my best efforts, still turned into physical issues. The angels have shown that prolonged emotional pain will physicalize. Physical pain always has an emotional root. Allowing emotional pain to sit inside your body for years or even decades will eventually create dis-ease. It took me decades of daily self care to unpack the pain, see the deeper meaning and eventually led me to create the relax, release, receive process I outlined in my debut book. The angels and I are here to save you time from years of feeling powerless to your pain. Join me for my FREE Master class Reclaim your Power when you're in chronic pain with Angel Love on Thursday 5/22 where I will share my signature Angelic Pain Relief formula and how to get instant relief working with Archangel Raziel and your own team of angels too! Enroll today. All my love, Jill
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4/17/2025 1 Comment Powerless to the Pain BlogIf you've ever been in chronic pain you know how draining and overwhelming it can be. The physical sensations of burning, aching or throbbing are bad enough. Then you add the emotional aspect where you may be blaming or even shaming yourself for being in pain and not being able to get rid of it or at least numb it. All the while feeling powerless to the chronic pain.
I used to beat myself up for being in pain. I would judge the pain and focus on all the things I was doing wrong, like eating too much sugar, not drinking enough water, pushing my body by giving too many massages that week. I would finally get into bed and then toss and turn all night because I couldn't get comfortable. Only to do the same thing all over again. I started to feel powerless to my pain and would seek temporary relief by numbing or self medicating. My breaking point, where I knew the pain had power over me, happened after a difficult house call massage client. A house call meant I had to carry my massage table and bag. I had this one client who needed a ton of pressure. I would need to dig into her hips and back with my elbows to give her relief. I knew it was hurting my body but I wanted to help her and I needed the income. On one occasion after this challenging house call client, I was sitting in my car and my shoulder was throbbing. I felt overwhelmed and emotional. I wasn't even able to have a normal and peaceful conversation with my loving husband. I can't remember what we were talking about, but the pain was so loud that I started screaming at him, to the point where he had to yell back and hang up on me. Which if you know my husband is nothing like him. He is so kind and patient, but I was raging and he needed to get my attention. This was the day where I knew something had to change. I couldn't keep giving massages while in pain. My angels kept telling me, I don't have to be in pain if I make this change. I finally got an MRI that confirmed that I had 2 tears in my shoulder. Thank goodness, I only needed physical therapy and not surgery, like my ACL tear. So I embarked on my second PT journey in under 2 years to help my shoulder recover from the tears. The shoulder tears and pain was the main motivation to retire from massage. I prayed and meditated with my angels for clarity. As terrifying as it was to retire from my almost 20 year massage career, the decision helped me take my power back from the pain. It's normal to feel powerless or like a victim when the pain takes over your consciousness but remember your angels know how to heal your pain. Taking your power back from the pain begins with the intention to do just that. Once you set the intention to receive pain relief, you need to devote yourself to this intention, while the pain releases in layers. The final step in the angelic pain relief formula is to relax and receive. Your power lies in being able to relax fully, physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually while both releasing the pain and receiving your angel's love and compassion. Join my FREE master class Reclaim Your Power when you're in Chronic Pain with Angel Love on Thursday 5/22 from 2:30-4:30pm CT. Join me live or through the replay. There will be a replay for 5 days. It's my mission to heal your pain with angel love now, so enroll today. You don't have to wait until May 22 to receive relief, sign up for a FREE Angelic Pain Relief consult. In this heartfelt sacred space I will share what your pain is really about ( it's usually not what you think), and what your angels are saying about your pain (bringing instant relief). I will also pull an archangel for you, that will help you heal your pain, based on what we discussed in the consult. If we are a good fit I will share the details of my coaching program with you. Looking forward to helping you heal that pain once and for all. Love Jill |
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